Chaos Theory

What do you know about the Chaos Theory? On a mathematical level, I know it has something to do with fractal geometry, but that's about all I understand. But basically, it's the idea that there can be order and even great beauty in what appears to be total chaos. It's the theory that if we watch the world and the randomness around us, patterns will begin to emerge. Order will become apparent.
And how crazy is that? The idea that even completely random numbers cannot exist without order, logic or patterns. Random is not a part of our existence, but it will all pan out in a way we may eventually be able to anticipate.
The idea that everything in our lives makes sense in some way is both completely amazing and completely unbelievable.
I mean, consider, would you, the idea of the Big Bang Theory. That theory means that millions upon billions of years ago, the elements, molecules, chemicals and matter necessary to create Earth, the Sun and everything around us just happened to combine in a way that was completely accurate. Then, the Big Bang and the expansion of the universe that supposedly created not only the planet, water, matter, space, antimatter, black holes and the stars… But also the beginnings of life. Of semi-sentient organisms capable of changing their DNA, albeit over thousands and millions of years, to form us.
See, that's completely crazy! The odds are astronomical. If I knew the odds, I could tell them to you and you would say, "Geez, that's like, super unlikely. Maybe Creationism has a point."
Because it's easier to believe that a mystical being forced these elements into combination, that a god (or "God", if you prefer) created life out of love and wanting for the believers and, dare I say, the entertainment of manipulating lives.
But then you have to ask yourself how that god ("God") came to be, and it loops and becomes a circular mess of logic until the random numbers and chemicals and elements mixing perfectly becomes more likely once more.
Which do you believe? How can either be right? Yet, neither can exist in tandem. One has to, at some point, admit the credibility of one or another.
And I myself am not sure what I believe: Do I want to believe that there is a god out there, vengeful and loving and wise? Or do I find comfort and solace in the idea that this all is a pattern, that nothing is too terrible or unprecedented and that life and all its colours are a predetermined pattern that we can't predict because we're not good enough at math?
I'm not sure. The Chaos Theory is definitely safer. You can accept it without also being forced into the doctrines that then must be derived out of the motives of that sentient being that created us. You can accept that we're the product of, after thousands of years of trial and error, an unlikely explosion of matter without having to wonder about your own moral compass and its stability in the eyes of your god.
I'd like to think that life doesn't end at death, but no one knows for sure and I don't even know what I think. Science and religion clash constantly but I want science to prevail overall.
I mean, religion is the root of all evil. Almost every religion has two or three that they hate, and every religion has extremists that kill. The people who blew up the Twin Towers. Countless suicide bombings all over the world. The KKK, here at home.
Sure, we say things to soften the merging of church and government. Anti-abortion laws are referred to as "faith-based initiatives" and "family values" are based out of the Bible. 9/11 was a faith-based initiative and bombings are an effort to adhere to the Qur'an. The Holocaust was a faith-based initiative and Hitler was their preacher.
Religion is the cause of humanitarian conflict, more than land and resources and politics. The largest factions of the world today are because of religion and the largest war crimes are as well.
Aren't random number combining in logical order within chaos a much more comforting thought?